Have you ever text somebody a question just to see how they would answer you? When you get the answer you think, "Oh heck, why did I ask that?" because it led into a two hour phone call. There was obviously a hidden agenda for your question to begin with, right?
Why do we always beat around the bush instead of just ask directly?
With me, it's a matter of protecting my heart. I always put up barriers and push away the ones I love. Why? because it's safe. My fear of getting hurt again is overwhelming. I try desperately to overcome this fear, but it's been a long process.

I am positive that one day I will be able to look back on this and roll my eyes as I laugh. And honestly, I hope that day comes soon. I understand guarding my heart will make it less painful, but think of all the love and joy that I will miss out on because I wouldn't take the risk.

I keep these words close to me, Dance, Live, Laugh, Love... dance as if there is no one watching. live as if there is no tomorrow. love as you have never loved before. laugh every moment of every day.

Superbowl

Wow! What a rivalry. Sister versus sister. Who will pull through and which sister will curse the most...

Funny enough, I am the Pittsburgh Steelers fan and I didn't curse as much as my sister who is a huge Green Bay Packers fan. Yet they won!

It was an intense showdown after half time and I thought it was fun to get my nephew cheering for my team. Every time a touchdown was scored, one of us would perform the end zone dance.

Pittsburgh had the ball with two minutes to go and Roethlisberger throws an interception to end their chance for victory. I groaned and walked into another room to start the cleanup process. My sister was extremely excited and kept cheering. I was frustrated. Who wouldn't be when their team lost? I walked back into the family room and shut off the television just before they popped the confetti.

"Hey," my sister whined.
Laughter filled the room.

How cruel to make them miss their celebration! But it was a personal Foul... Excessive Celebration after the game!

A Gas Experience

Oh my goodness is all I can say to an embarrassing experience. I recently changed vitamins with the hopes of gaining more energy. However, sometimes that's not such a wise thing.

I used to take my vitamins in the morning but I had heard that taking them at night is better for digestion. I began taking them with a glass of milk while making dinner. This I had been doing for two weeks. And for two weeks I have been mystified by an unpleasant visitor, gas. To make matters worse, my boyfriend would come over and enjoy dinner with my son and I. It seems the moment he walked in the door my stomach began to churn. I couldn't believe this was happening to me. I never had issues with gas and I began to wonder if it was my boyfriend causing it.

I had made dinner, making sure there weren't any vegetables or dairy products to upset my stomach, because living off Maalox isn't fun at all. As soon as dinner ended, I send them off to play the Wii while I clean up the kitchen. My stomach starts to churn as I clear the table. "Oh man, not again!" I rush to the bathroom hoping it would pass. Praying it would pass. I take another Maalox just to be on the safe side.
I can hear them down in the basement laughing and I felt like I needed to let out some relief. I hear footfalls on the stairs, praying it's my son as the sound of a fog horn rips long and loud. My face is burning hot as I turn slowly towards the staircase. A sigh of relief when I see my son standing on the top step. He starts to laugh and looks down the stairs. I try to divert his attention but it is no use. He shouts out, "Mommy just farted!"
Then I heard my boyfriend say, "So I heard."
I look down the stairway and see him, half smiling, half laughing, halfway up the stairs and my face burned with humiliation.

Return To Cycle

This is the sequel to Death By Cycle. In this energetic tale, a mouthy sarcastic woman, Leanna, takes over Lisa's cycle class. JJ and Austin are standoffish while the rest of the class celebrates. Leanna's new powerful position became fatal as the class began. Not only were the doors locked but automatic shackles were installed. Once Leanna said, "Seventy percent on this heavy climb up the mountain." a diabolical laugh escapes her. She presses the button mounted on the right side of her cycle. The shackles lock around their ankles and the gasps from the class fill the room.

"Leanna what are you doing? I thought I was your best friend!" Andrea shrieked.

"Pedal harder and push back into a hover," Leanna shouted. "This one's for you Andrea. Don't worry Austin, isolation is coming up soon." Leanna's laughter echoed through the room and many cringed.

"I knew it!" Austin shouted. "She's worse than Lisa!"

"Oh Austin, I thrive on giving you the best cycle experience you could imagine," Leanna said with a devious smile. "I do this for you. Not for me."

Amy turns to Sheila and whispers, "how long do you think it will take for one of us to dethrone her?"

Sheila turns to look at Andrea whose face turned scarlet and an evil glint flashed in her eye. She looks at JJ and Austin. Their expressions compared equally to Andrea's.

"I give it an hour." Sheila and Amy bust out laughing catching everyone off guard.
Leanna raised a brow. She shook her head and commanded, "ISOLATION!"

To be continued...

Again this story and it's characters are completely fictional intended for amusement purposes only.

Snow Day Number 3

Day three on the captain's log. It is o' niner fifty-three and all is calm. The puppy is playing quietly with his chew toy close to fading into nap time and the child is playing trains quietly in his room. I ask myself, how did I get so lucky this morning when the last two days have been exhausting? I wonder do they see the stress marks on my forehead? The way I rub my temples constantly? Or do they finally need time to themselves?

I am relaxed and ready to pick up my book and get through another chapter. I...
Oh no! What has happened to the quiet I just settled into? The boy has come into the rooom asking me question after question and turned on that annoying hamster that sings "Everybody was Kung Fu fighting. The puppy is whining for attention!

I had three minutes of silence and now I must sign off.

This is you captain signing off, saying "HELP ME!"

Hahaha! Just a little humor to add to the morning mix. Out of the three days we have been out of school this one is by far the easiest... so far.

Recently I received a puppy for Valentines Day. I was so excited and I thought my five year old son would be too. He loves the puppy but he wants my attention the moment I begin to work with the puppy. I can feel the jealousy kick in as both he and the puppy pretty much fight for my attention leaving me running in circles and exhausted by the end of the day. At least there is a full day of school and errands to run throughout the week and a boyfriend to help out for a few hours too.

Would I trade this moment? No. It's not going to be forever and watching the puppy grow alongside my son will be wonderful to watch.

The Joy Of Ice Cream

I'm sitting on the couch in my pajamas enjoying a huge bowl of vanilla bean ice cream from Braums. The evening news is on and I'm thinking maybe just maybe I should rethink this moment. Then I think nah... these are the moments I live to enjoy.
I am training myself to be ready for spring and summer when I can start dressing lighter. I really aim to look my best now that I have devoted myself into training to become an aerobics instructor. I am sure that eating a bowl of ice cream late at night and washing it down with a soda just isn't going to help me get into my desired body shape. But my will to behave in the winter is weak. It's even weaker now that I am comfortable in my relationship and he also has a love for ice cream.

So what do I do now? I say eat in the late afternoon or early evening and skip the soda!